Another part of the puzzle
10 Mar 2011 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: demons, overeater's anonymous
I’ve been hesitant to write about this because it doesn’t feel quite right to talk about it but I’m going to because it is all a part of this fixing broken Jen.
I went to an overeaters anonymous meeting. It was an all day thing and I was only able to make it for the last hour or so but, wow. It isn’t so much what I heard while I was there-tho that was a big part of it. Rather, it is what I felt. For weeks now I’ve been trying to put it into words that both convey my emotions and protect the anonymity that is so important in meetings like this. When it was my turn to talk I had no idea what to say besides my favorite proverb {fall down 7, stand up 8} and that this was my 8. Everyone there got it.
I think that weight watchers is a part of the plan. It helps you stay focused on a healthy way of eating and changing the way you look at food from a nutritional viewpoint. OA and other groups like it? They go much deeper and there are some of us that really need that deep and intense look at the emotional reasons why. Why do I feed my feelings? Why did I gain back all my weight when the person I thought was forever walked out on us? Why don’t I hold myself in high regard? Why in the hell don’t I love myself ? Logically, I’ve known I have to find these answers to really be healthy. Emotionally, I had no idea how to get there until I walked into that room. I found another part of home wrapped in the smiling faces of strangers with welcoming voices and powerful hugs all telling me to just come back.
Ok then,
Jen
