Jennifer Lynn

I’ve realized today how much I’m coming to understand my body and how this food thing, at least for me, is very much an addiction. This is a first and also not hard to admit *now* on this journey.

Wednesday was the start of the challenge. We had a chili day at work and everyone brought lots of goodies. I brought hot dogs thinking that I really wanted a chili dog and if I brought this to work, I would be more likely to have ONE chili dog instead of the eight hot dogs in the package. I really like hot dogs but they have to be Oscar Meyer Beef Hot Dogs. If you want to understand how I feel about them please read the fabulous book The Pigeon Finds a Hot Dog by Mo Willems. I am the pigeon.

Well, I did this and I had a great chili dog. Then Ris brought me fudge and I brought her iced animal crackers and we proceeded to eat them on Wednesday night. I didn’t gorge or binge, but it was a fair amount of foods that I don’t usually eat anymore and the scale proved it.

Thursday is weigh in day at WW and as such I usually eat pretty lite-a breakfast bar (maybe), yogurt and my fusion drink. This Thursday was no different but I was ravenous by the afternoon and my mind was thinking about those hot dogs still in the fridge. Finally, I realized I wasn’t going to make it if I didn’t do something! I went to my boss and asked if I could leave early and explained why. I have lots of extra hours so she said yes. I went to the early ww meeting and lost .4 pounds. .4!! That chili dog would have been devastating to my psyche! The meeting was great-they are really so helpful and I even got their new cookbook. From there I went straight to the gym and had a nice workout. When I left there I realized that I was no longer starving and was feeling very good with lots of energy. Isn’t that great?

So, instead of trucking to McD’s because I have a whole week now before weigh in, I opened up the cookbook to soup and found a nice recipe for hearty split pea soup. I went to the store, got all the ingredients (yes, even the carrots) and made homemade soup for the evening. It was great and I beat my demons for the day!

Go Jen!

I don’t have a full topic to write about but I have a bunch of little things.

One, I am making a pact with myself to go to the gym more this week. I believe I did the best I could last week, but I feel bad/guilty or something. I had a great workout on Saturday tho. I did the weights and walked two miles. The second mile I kicked it into high gear with Madonna on the pod and passed people who had previously passed me. Rock on. I know it isn’t a competition but I’m a competitive person so I get fussy when I get passed a lot. I want to stick out my tongue and say, yeah, well screw you. So mature.

I’ve been really emotional!! I’m cycling again and this resulted in mucho pain since last Wednesday. I’m excited to be cycling but I was not excited to feel the same way that I used to before I started losing weight. I felt so tired and wiped out. I did not realize just how differently I was feeling until I went back to the old way. Damn, it really sucks. I cried a lot but now I’m just determined to plow thru it and do whatever I can to get my body used to this downward trend.

We had my parents over last night for a thank you dinner. They let us live with them and fed us for six days during the ice storm. We fixed weight watchers warm bean salad and s’mores for dessert. They were both really, really good and got rave reviews. The salad was most scrumptious and I wasn’t expecting that not being a veggie person.

Good news! It is suppose to be in the 50’s tomorrow instead of sub-arctic temperatures and the greenway trail by work has re-opened from the ice storm. Yippee! My shoes are itchin’ to go.

~Jen