So, I had a really, really bad day at work yesterday. I was blindsided by my boss with ridiculous made-up accusations and lies. LOTS of lies. This is becoming more common because when she unravels she has to take it out on her biggest threat-me. It took me months to figure that one out, but now that I have I can see the patterns and feel the storm a risin’. I missed it all yesterday and had no idea of what was coming. I countered and showed her the inconsistencies and blatant lies she was telling, but it still left me very angry.
What does Jen do when she gets angry? Two things:
1. Drinks heavily, margaritas preferred
2. Eats comfort food.
Ris was working til 8 so I visited the store on the way home and came out with a large bottle of maragritas and a box of extra creamy mac ‘n cheese. Fantastic stuff! I was proud that I didn’t come out with more than that as I had donuts, sausage and valentine’s candy in my hands at one point or another.
I went home got a good buzz, ate some mac and watched the Olympics. What a great night for drunken Olympics-lots of crashes and glee. Weeeee.
My biggest clue that I’m making changes in the motherboard known as my brain is that I actually had a conversation with myself about why I was eating. For fun, I named my alter ego Jose and we tried to conversate in Spanish, but that didn’t go far. Instead, I pondered the fact that reaction eating hurts no one except for yourself and that it ruins all the hard work you have put into your workouts and eating right. Logically, I’ve known that. Emotionally, I’ve ignored it. I did good, Jose and me. I didn’t eat all I wanted to and what I did eat I thought about and ate with great mindfulness.
I did have a lot of fun-boss be damned!
~Jen
